transparency.
24 Feb
It’s been whispering to me for some time now. Only an idea, just a word really. Teasing at my brain, turning around in my subconscious, compelling me to consider…
Transparency.
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I first spoke my truth here.
Awakenings sheltered me while I stretched my limbs, shed the bullshit, exposed my exquisitely tender heart and let it all pour out. I wallowed in self-indulgence, curled myself into a ball in the corner, beat my chest and howled at the moon. I got brave, I got clear, and I found dead calm and purpose.
Everyone needs a safe place. A spot to be vulnerable, to exhale, to let it all down. A space to just be.
This has been mine, and I am fiercely protective of it.
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Two years ago I leapt. Opened my eyes, threw off my lifeline and jumped at a million miles an hour. I spent as much time crashing as I did soaring and here I am now, scarred and humbled but blissfully, painfully, brilliantly alive.
But still hiding. Still compartmentalized. This part here, that part there. Neat little boxes for a life blown wide open.
It doesn’t make sense anymore.
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Opportunities arise. Doors appear in front of me, but the message is clear. They only open if I give myself a name and a face.
Can I do it?
Wow. To be standing at the edge, the water swirling beneath, the wind howling to pull you forth. It is exciting and scary. As they say, fear is excitement without breath. As they say, Jump, and the ground appears. As they say, aim for the moon, even if you miss, you are tangled amongst the stars. YOU can do it.
I suspect you ARE doing it. Your subconscious may be letting you get away with believing you’re not, just so you don’t freak out too much, but I bet you are already doing that thing you are wondering if you can do. As you continue to do it, remember you get to be both as public and as private as you choose. Nobody else gets to decide that for you.
yes you will do it. you are doing it.
you are helping countless women through your words….
thank you.